The dual life of the media of the media, Barry Deller, is now recently unveiled

Media and radio founder Barry Diller He opened for the first time about his attractiveness to men and the complexities of his long relationship with iconic fashion designer Diane Von Forstelberg.

In an excerpt from his new memoirs “who knew”, Deller opened his sexual life, detailing the internal conflicts that he wrestled with for years and how he intertwined with his love for the Fatust Mentemberg.

Deller is famous for its influence in the media and entertainment.

However, behind his amazing success, he now revealed that he spent most of his life hiding secretly: his attractiveness to men.

“I have never wondered from the authority of my essential sexual life on my life (I was just afraid of the reaction of others),” I admit “who knew,” New York Magazine. “And when a romance started with Diane, I never wondered that her biological necessity was strong in the opposite sex as it was the opposite. When that happened, my first response was,” Who knew? “

In the notes, Deller recounted his first experience with men, starting with a teenager in West Hollywood.

He wrote: “I found ways to find men – starting with adolescence years in the streets on West Hollywood Street, and they were entered and left the side doors of the bars along Mellerose Street.”

Even as his career rises, he kept the fear of being emotionally isolated.

He participated in saying: “I achieved great success in an early profession, maybe I thought I had invaded what I saw as the largest dangerous in my developing life. I invaded another phobia, but the fear of exposure still has a tyrant grip.”

Despite the internal conflict, Diller’s love for Fortnberg was uninterrupted.

The couple, who married in 2001 after decades of romance, was first connected in the early seventies.

“I didn’t just want her, I needed her,” he wrote. “This is a severe mess in built self -frustration.”

Although he was emotionally unprofessional for intimate relationship, their relationship has flourished.

“I lived for decades to read about Diane and I: We are the best friends instead of lovers. We were not just friends. We are not only friends. It was simple and simple, it was an explosion of emotion that lasted for years.”

Deller was open to the duplication of his feelings: “Yes, I also loved men, but this was not a struggle with my love for Lyan.”

For decades, Diller lived with a silence that is self -imposed. Instead of getting out publicly, he developed a set of personal rules designed to manage appearances while maintaining sincerity for himself.

“I will live silently, but not by hypocrisy,” one of its rules stated. Another announced, “I will never bring a man as dates of an event of two different sexes – not that there are many players I was serious about to bring him – but I have never attended a” beard “too.

If we look back, those limits are called what they were, pointing out, “I now realize this unlike courage.”

Although he finally realized that “everyone knows”, he remained unwilling to name his sexual life publicly.

“The division of these unwanted feelings has become so successful that it has ruled and has merged my life since then,” participated.

When it comes to his prominent relationship with von Forstelberg, Barry Deller allowed the world to extract his own conclusions.

“I hid my relationship with Diane from the audience at the beginning because I could not define them,” I explained.

Von Forstenberg, a fashion force that revolutionized women’s treasures with her wrapping dress, has become a symbol of female power and independence. Thus, as its fame increased, their association has become more difficult to hide.

However, for Deller, the nature of their bond did not need an explanation.

“Although I admit that I was always interested in men, he was not in a conflict with my love for Lyan,” he said.